Auditioning

Resume FUN-Shui

I'm half-way though Bonnie Gillespie's FREE 11-day Get in Gear for the New Year Training. Last year I jumped on the bandwagon and bought her book. This past year is the first time I've really focused on on-camera acting in addition to theatre.

Goals! Goals! Goals!

Whenever I have a goal, I always want to get there faster, and getting into the film world is no different. My acting technique is strong, but my filming experience is small--I did do a handful of student films, and some background work this year, but I want to be doing co-star roles in a local Network TV shows (Portland included), and Low (or Ultra-Low) Budget films, or Big Budget films, cause why limit myself?!

Trust the Process

The Get in Gear program is all about evaluating your materials, and making yourself seem ready for the next tier for buyers (casting directors, directors, producers, networks, etc.) I realized that this time last year I had ZERO on-camera credits; now I have four on my resume! I'm lucky to be with my agency, MAM, and my job is to make my material even more castable so my agent, Dustin, can pitch me. 

Day 4 was all about Resumes. Here's the results. 

BEFORE

BEFORE

AFTER

AFTER

Not drastically different, but I like how Bonnie puts the focus on what story your credits tell in terms of how TO cast you in the future. Bye-Bye 19-year old Paige, I cannot realistically play you anymore. Bye Willi Eisenring--while I could possibly still continue to get cast in a male role (sorry dudes, I am your competition), it's not telling buyers what I should be getting cast in, which is: Fun Mom, Fierce Mom, Intelligent Business Woman, Medical Professional, and Bubbly Best Friend Roles.

I also remove the italics on play titles, and corrected the email for my agency contact (it was AN email to my agent, just not the one they want on resumes). I tweaked my special skills. I do wonder if there are on-brand skills I should list (or learn). It's not like I need anything super flashy for the roles listed above. I can learn accents for a job, but it's not something I feel comfortable doing on the fly, with a script I haven't prepared on, so I haven't listed any accents or dialects. It's possible that is something I should work towards for a few (RP and Southern perhaps).

Resolutions

My goals for 2018 include getting more roles and footage of bullseye type roles to further specify my resume, and beef up my reel. Some will be by the things I audition for, but others will be self-produced projects. I already have two script ideas, and scene partners in mind! Looking forward to sharing those with you when I have them completed!

Rejected Again: Why That Makes Me Happy

An actor's life can be tough.

Photo By Danielle Barnum

Photo By Danielle Barnum

Even those not in the business know that there is a lot of rejection in an actor's life.  

What's difficult, especially when you're trying to get back into a career like I am, is telling people that you're an actor and they're like, "What are you working on?" and you don't have anything to show for it. I struggle with how much I want to share with my friends and family about the auditions I'm going on. Sometimes I'm really excited about a show that I got a call back for, and then it sucks to share that I didn't get it.

 

Small Victories

It's important to celebrate the successes, like that feeling of nailing it in the room or getting that callback. Heck, even a smile or "Really nice work!" from the folks behind the table can feel like a huge win!


"It will be hard to explain your first milestone to friends and family back home. They are waiting to see you on TV or the big screen. It is hard to explain how a second call back for a job you didn't land was the highlight of your month and a very valid reason to celebrate."

-Jenna Fischer, actor on "The Office"
Originally published on July 13, 2006 on Jenna Fischer’s Blog on TVGuide.com.


As a director, I don't call someone back unless I feel that actor is someone who could play that part. In the callback, it's about seeing if they're a good fit for the show with the rest of the cast--seeing how all the puzzle pieces fit. It's not personal at that point:

You are talented. You could play this part.

When I'm on the other side of the table, as an actor, getting that into my brain can be challenging.
 

My Recent Rejection

Back in December, I was auditioning a bunch and got called back for everything I auditioned for. Huge success! Each project was something I was really excited about the possibility of performing in. I worked hard preparing for those audition, making bold choices in the room, and presenting myself in a positive light. Then I got rejected, and rejected, and rejected, and rejected...and a really big disappointing rejection. Then finally--I got cast (more on that later)!

I realized after getting all those "thanks, but no thanks" emails, what it meant was, I was putting myself out there! I may not have gotten cast in those particular shows, but I hope I was memorable and those companies and directors will think of me for future projects.


Can you find the joy in the pursuit of acting? 
- Bonnie Gillespie, SMFA 4 Ed, Pg 40.


You have to find the joy in the pursuit and in the process. If not, all that time preparing and auditioning will feel like a waste, and you may think of yourself as unsuccessful. At least I've had those thoughts before, and I don't want to think that way anymore. 

So join me in reframing our view of this process to allow joy, curiosity, and delight in the pursuit. Then take a look at my next blog entry "Performing for a Captive Audience: Headlining the Audition Circuit."